So I have this friend. His name is Ben. Hes your normal blond haired, blue eyed, next door neighbour, soccer guy. He loves his family, and his friends with his whole heart, and especially his savor, Jesus Christ. He is super sweet, caring, funny, smart, talented...I could go on, but there is just not enough room on any blog, site, paper to explain his awesomeness.
I met Ben about 5 or 6 years ago, through some mutual friends at this youth retreat called Soulfire for church. We were never really "friends" but were more like acquaintances for about 4 years. This was because we both lived in different towns and attended different schools, church's, youth groups etc. I would see him about 4 times a year at the max for soulfire, but besides the occasional "hey" on FB or MSN, our friendship never really grew into anything. That lasted until September 2010, when we both started attending the same school for college. ( me for college, him for university ) This meant that we would see each other on a daily basis, which was awesome, coming from not seeing each other at all. So as the days went on, our friendship started to blossom, which was quite neat! Then one day, we were the bestest of friends, and it was great! I could talk to him about everything and tell him all my problems, which I always ended up doing. Lol. He was also a member of the "Thursday Crew". (TC explained at http://alysha-365daysoftheunknown.blogspot.com/2011/06/where-would-i-be-without-you.html) I loved him like a brother, and me like a sister for him. But our friendship went through some troubles and toils....Well when your best friends with a guy and super tight like we were, rumors start to flare which only leads to one question...."Are you guys dating?". This spread like wild fire through the friends we had, families we have and his hockey team. Months went by, and we just ignored them, until it got to be too much from everyone and we had to explain that we are/were not dating and never have. Once that was all settled with, it was back to being the bestest of friends. Life was great. Until one Sunday morning in January of 2011. I was at church, and I got a text from him...."So who's the lucky guy you like?". Well did I forget to mention, over the holidays, I had developed feelings for my best friend. Well about 2hrs after that question was asked, he finally knew the truth, and I felt like running away and never wanting to see him again. Well at that point, I had realized....I must not like him that much, if I feel this awkward about seeing him the next time....little did I know that next time was going to be about 2 hours after him finding out everything! Well you see, our friend Trisha had invited us both to go bowling with her and a bunch of her friends from her church. Well I didn't know until Trisha told me, and after knowing that I kinda wanted to kill them both. It was probably one of the more full awkward days I've had in my life. Well the day went on, when I saw him it was quite awkward, for me anyways and about a week later, things were back to normal. (I guess you would say) Well not quite.....I thought everything was great, but not so much....emotions lead to confusion, confusion lead to being scared, and being scared lead to not talking to each other anymore. Well you can see where the gist of this is going. After not talking for about 4 months, ( I was still under the impression of being best friends ) I was like what the heck? So I confronted him, this lead to anger, confusion, sadness, and just a complete mess of stuff...So on good terms were still kinda friends...on other terms were starting from ground zero.
I have now moved on from this experience, but looking back at it, it brings up the question, Do you think God pulls certain people out of our lives, so we can draw closer to others? God will never let us experience anything he doesn't think we can't handle. Now for this situation, I still don't know why God allowed this to happen, and what his intentions are for my future. But the times I spent with Ben, I will always cherish close to my heart. He was like my brother, how can you just throw that out a window that quick. It doesn't happen like that.
If you ever get the opportunity to meet this AMAZING guy, it will be an opportunity of a life time, because he is one of the truest, sweetest guys out there. And hes not like any other because he was created in the Lord's eyes to his perfection. My friends and I would always joke about, whatever girl marries Ben, will be a very lucky lady, cuz she will be treated like a princess! And too this day, I still think that! Ben your heart is soo big, it astounds me sometimes, cuz hes always trying to make his friends happy and never takes time out for himself, and for this I just want to thank you Ben! You're a great guy and your love for the Lord is soo powerful. If you have question's ask him, cuz he will be able to answer them to the full extent an answer can get to. Lol. Keep living on for the Lord ben and he will take to great places in life! :)
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