::Every Story Has An Ending::

Hey guys and gals,

Sorry I have not blogged in sooooooo long! Just getting really busy with the end of school and graduating, finding and working 3 jobs and everything else in my life, it was just crazy. Then I had a really good time in my life where everything was perfect and I never wanted it to ever end and then these just past few months have turned over a new shoulder lets say. A friend committed suicide, a relationship break up in the family, and now my own problems there has just been no time. Recently Jordan and I broke up. :( For reasons that are still unclear to me, and it was very recent so im still trying to get through the after stages. It will take some time as we were together for almost a year and he was my best friend. He was the one I turned to when I need to talk to someone and now thankfully I have the best support core group of friends that have been helping me get through this. In the end I hope we can still be friends, you all and I'm pretty sure everyone I know, knew how much I loved him, and I still do. I care so much about him still but I guess our relationship just ran its course, and if it meant to be in the end like we always talked about, God will draw us closer together in the future once again. I am dealing with a lot of pain right now and I found the perfect song to basically express how I am feeling. Only God knows my future and I need to start trusting him and not leaning on my own understanding of things.......

It's never enough to say I'm sorry
It's never enough to say I care
But I'm caught between what you wanted from me
And knowing that if I give that to you
I might just disappear

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

[Chorus:]
It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
I know it's like trying to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

It's never enough to say I love you
No, it's never enough to say I try
It's hard to believe
That's theres no way out for you and me
And it seems to be the story of our lives

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

[Chorus]

There's still time to turn this around
You could be building this up instead of tearing it down
But I keep thinking
Maybe it's too late

[Chorus]

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, baby I'm sorry to see
Maybe we're not meant to be